Servant

I’ve been doing that thing again… you know…. From time to time, I catch myself thinking. As much as I don’t like it, it happens to the best of us. I was riding in Andrea’s car today, sitting in the back seat, (Jen was up front) and just staring out the window. (I find that when you are in the backseat, you seize to exist to the people up front.)

I was thinking about my life. What I’ve done with it, the commitments I’ve made, so on and so forth and I’m pretty proud of myself. I don’t mean to brag but since I turned 22, I’ve almost turned everything around. In three years I’ve done a lot. The most important thing though is dedicating my life to Jesus. That’s actually why I have sat down to write this.

I am a person who needs constant reminding. With anything I do, whether it be an appointment, a birthday, (heck, if it weren’t for the Underwoods, I’d have forgotten mine this year) anything. I need to be reminded. It’s a hard thing for me to cope with, because when people remind me, I also have a tendency to get insulted. (Something I’m working on) It seems suitable for me to say, I need reminding why I am on this earth. Sure, I have a job, and “earthly responsibilities” but, I have a hard time remembering why I am REALLY on this earth.

I know that might sound amateur, or whatever, but it’s true. I think it’s easy for people to say, especially around other “Christians”. I’m on this earth to glorify, praise and serve Jesus. See how good it sounds? But what do I do to REALLY show this?

Remember the movie “Sister Act” (maybe two) where they do that song and they say, “By the way….. What have you done for him lately?” That’s where I am. What have I done for him lately? I do some volunteer work….. (When it’s convenient for me) I even gave up red meat for lint, (except I forgot a few times, and work bought me a steak when I was out of town.) I even pray before I eat…. (Sometimes, when I’m alone, I forget)

You see, I know this is something most people go through. Sure it’s easy for me to point out in myself, because I forget everything, so saying sometimes I forget to act on my beliefs of being a Christ-Follower is easy. For me to say, I need a reminder is easy. Also, it is not asking God to perform a miracle in my life everyday. With how my life went, every day I wake up is a miracle. I’m simply asking myself what I can do to remind myself?

Not only remind myself, but to act on it? It truly is a lifestyle, but what about the extreme? What about the extra mile? I want to go there. I don’t want to be a “convenient Christian”. I don’t want to be an “Until I Forgot Christian”. I want to live like Christ, to the best of my ability. I want to make my Father proud. I guess that’s what I’m getting down to. I’m here on Earth to be a servant of the Lord. All the way, not partially, not kinda, but seriously. That’s what I want to do. Recommit if you will. Something.

Anyway, that was my rant. I know I’m not the world’s greatest writer, and when I’m writing, it probably sounds half way foolish, with some spelling errors, but, it’s my heart, and I love that. J I hope you enjoy the read.

-Servant